Vulnerability is as real as it gets. To open yourself up and let people into your world can be very scary. I have delayed this day long enough, and now I'm ready. With the encouragement of my "north stars" behind me (which I plan to write about in a future post), this is me...
I have seen some very dark days. I've been places I promised myself I'd never go back to. There was a period in my life when I had no control of my life, my feelings, and more importantly, my thoughts. I worried about what others thought about me. I sought approval; I sought acceptance; I sought happiness from everywhere other than myself. I've had to make a lot of tough decisions and with the help of a strong support system, I am here today to tell you about it.
You are your thoughts. Henry Ford once said, "Whether you [think] you can or [think] you can't, you're right." You can change your life; but first, you must change your thinking. I've spent a lot of years working on improving my thoughts. I used to go down this never-ending spiral of negative thoughts for hours on end. Round and round and round. Until I would come out from the other end, wondering how much time I just wasted. In our yoga practice, we call them "stories." They are usually untrue, very unkind, and can be very detrimental. I can't honestly say I don't continue to create "stories," however, I'm more aware of when I do and I'm usually very quick to stop them.
I am a work in progress. I'm still working on giving myself permission to fail, make mistakes, and stumble from time to time. I exert a lot of effort to pick myself back up after I fail. I used to apologize for being my authentic self. No more. I'm learning to embrace what makes me unique. I'm learning to love the things I love about me.
You have the power to change anything you put your mind to. If you don't like something, change it. If something isn't working for you, fix it. If you're ready for a change, make it. Think of what you want more of in your life. Write it down, put it somewhere were you can read it everyday, and manifest it.
Believe it. Own it. Begin again.